Unexpected job

I found a job.

I found this job in a hotel working with the chef who just won himself the championship of culinary competition in Islas Baleares. Actually I haven´t really worked together with him so far cos he´s now preparing the national culinary competition coming in few days. For the moment i´m now working with two of his assistants, who by the way are really nice guys.

I start from 11h30 till the end of the service which could be between 3h30 to 4h30. Then we have about 3hrs of break and start again from 7h30 till midnight. The wages are much better than previous job plus tips and I have Sat. morning off and Sunday which means i wont be able to meet Pep so often.

My legs are almost destroyes the 1st weeks and extremely tired. I miss a lot working in the office and chatting with friends on line during the job. The guys are nice to me but it´s quite different working with foreigners in a unfamiliar country. I feel such relief everytime I send out the last dish and the urge of getting myself a glas of champagne. I start to realize why Pep is not able to get to sleep right after working cos last week I spent more than 1h before getting myself fall asleep. However a little bit of alcohol helps a lot. Welcome to the metier, says Pep.

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p.s. here is the hotel- http://www.conventdelamissio.com/

i think i´m a useless human being

I´m 28 year-old already, married and i don't have a steady job yet. all the money in my bank account comes from my all-mighty mother(well, a bit from my hard-working husband), thanks to her that now i could sit down in front of this computer and mess up my own life. I feel quite empty since coming back here. I don´t know how come i put myself into this...well, chaos.

I dont know what i want to do as career, or I DO know what to do but I need to go out of this island and i dont see that happen. all right, this morning my boss called me up asking if i´m ready to get back to work. the thing is i dont even know if to keep working in pastry or to find something else. also, we want to have a baby this year and i cant keep a pastry job and a baby at the same time, i´ll be exhausted. meanwhile, the global warmimg and the pollution totally upset me and spoil the idea of giving birth to a small tiny baby. what for? to suffer from the tragedy of the planet? before leaving home, i bought 2 more trash cans for my mum and told her the best thing she could do for her grand daughter is to keep clean the planet and it could be done just by recycling. however we dont know if the taiwanese govenment really RECYCLES afterwards.

anyways, i think i should go back to my previous job before finding another even i really dont wanna go back there and let the mother fucker take advantage of cheap labor. or i could stay at home fooling around like a spoiled girl( or woman) until i get a new job.

well, i thought that if i say it out loud i´d feel better, but i dont feel a shit.